Shards

and as they take me to that cave
darkness within...
inviting me..
caressing my body....

as shards fly to welcome me
cutting me in.
leaving a hole..
in my soul...

and as i disintegrate...
to annihilate....
those shards shine in my light..
lighten up your world...

Numb

Nothing matters much...... Nothing much matters...


Forgetting myself as the time flies
everything lost in frnt of my eyes
yet another blow, but it dsnt hurt anymore
if anything matters at all m not sure



Voices echo in my head all day long.... The sacred chants, the manson shit, the sweet giggles... its all mixed up....
The past comes back to haunt me, tolls the bells, just as i start feeeling grateful for the riddance...
Life is a function of time..somebody told me.... i discovered that it is cyclic in nature... it all comes back to what it was.. nothing actually changes... the change is only apparent.. not real...

As i sit down against cold ground, frozen in time, random thoughts fly past my mind, and in a desperate effort to comprehend them, as i blink my eyes, a silent tear lives out its whole life... And as i gape in amazement, trying to understand the intensity of that one moment, another passes....

The cold blasts of air dont touch me... neither does the scorching heat..
The sun doesnt blind me... nor does the full moon soothes my eyes...
The sweet or the sour... it all tastes the same...so does the success and defeat...
everyone is so far away that it'd take me eons to reach them...
i walk on plain air, levitated, no one can touch me...

U talk to me... assuming that i am listening.. but all i listen to are the voices in my head...u think I am looking at you... but i pointlessly stare into the space...

Nothing matters much...... Nothing much matters...

Is this this what you call being

Numb?